Mea ‘ai – fa’apāpā

My Dad and I would joke about how this translates into “bang bang bread” because the words could also loosely mean fa’a (to do/to be) and pāpā (bang/hit), and that’s what you do before you bake it!

I haven’t actually made this before on my own but have made it with and watched mum make it (cook islander’s also make this food – so I’ve made it with her in Mitiaro when we would go over and spend Christmas/New year months there).

I like fa’apāpā. It’s not my favourite Samoan snack (I love masi saiga – a bit obsessively). I grew up eating this and know my grandmother used to make it when she was raising me. I’m pretty sure she would keep these handy in her handbag during church services or housie too – no doubt. My grandfather absolutely loved these too and during the school holidays when I would live with him, we would walk to the Mount Roskill bakery (or sometimes drive to other local polynesian shops) and buy fa’apāpā, along with kalo and other groceries.

A sweet snack when out and about, easy to store and easy to eat too lol. Also – vegan for those who are interested. Fa’apāpā is also used for fa’ausi, which I’ll make another time.

Recipe (makes 2 “loves” – taken from the Samoa Food blog):

  • 2 cups flour
  • 1 1/3 cup shredded/desiccated coconut
  • 1/3 cup sugar (I used brown sugar but want to try this with raw sugar)
  • 200 ml coconut milk (I used light coconut milk for the fa’apāpā pictured below)


  1. Preheat oven to 200 degrees celsius.
  2. Grease two separate squares of baking paper to wrap your loaves in and a baking tray to put them on.
  3. Sift the flour in a bowl then mix in your desiccated coconut, sugar and mix evenly.
  4. Add your coconut milk and mix until you have your fa’apāpā dough.
  5. Separate into two “loaves” and wrap them in the two separate sheets of baking paper.
  6. Bake for 35 – 45 min.
  7. Slice and enjoy!



How Some Pacific Women Are Responding to Climate Change and Natural Disasters


Human Wrongs Watch


Women in the South Pacific island nation of Vanuatu are dealing with six crises currently – COVID 19, drought, scarcity of potable water, and volcanic ash, acid rain and sulphur gas as there are several active volcanoes on the island. But global women’s rights organisations are collaborating with regional alliances in supporting local women.


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Consent and Rape Culture


So, What is Consent?

Consent is the permission for something to happen; the willingness to engage in a sexual activity.

Consent is a voluntary, enthusiastic, and clear agreement between the participants to engage in specific sexual activity.

Consent is:

You must have permission for each activity at every stage of a sexual encounter. Consent is about communication, and it should happen every time. Giving consent for one activity at a time is not automatic consent for increased or recurring sexual contact.

Note that consent can be withdrawn at any time: A person has a right to change their mind about engaging in, or continuing a sexual activity whenever they choose to. It is important to clearly communicate to your partner that you are no longer comfortable with the activity and wish to stop.

Participants in a sexual activity must be capable of granting their consent. If a…

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Women, Race and Class by Angela Y. Davis

Fay Van Kerckvoorde

#onthisday in 1944 Angela Y. Davis was born. She is an American political activist, philosopher, academic and author. She wrote over ten books on class, feminism, and the U.S. prison system. She was a member of the Communist Party USA until 1991. Also, she was jailed for charges related to a prison outbreak, though ultimately cleared.

Women, Race and Class is an historical analysis of the women’s movement in the U.S. from abolitionist days to the present. Davis demonstrates how emancipation movements always have been obstructed by the sexist, racist and classist biases of its leaders. Unfortunately, to this day these exclusions still exist in a lot of social movements.

The book was first published in 1981, but it is not dated. If you want to read a coherent book that places the feminist struggle in a broader context from an intersectional view, I’d highly recommend it! In my opinion…

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Good Porn by Erika Lust

Fay Van Kerckvoorde

Years ago I wrote my master thesis about Feminist Porn. I researched the history starting from the feminist second wave. This debate held two opposed viewpoints: the anti-porn movement who argued that porn was anti-feminist because it exploited women’s bodies. On the other hand, the anti-censorship movement saw the potential to free (female) sexuality from patriarchal, misogynous and heteronormative social structures. I explored how the discourse developed to the contemporary debate and what the values and ethics of feminist porn include. (I wrote more about this in Dutch on this blog.)

‘Good Porn’ helped me during my research process. It is a very accessible book that’s writing with a humorous wink. Erika Lust is an independent erotic filmmaker, author and founder of Erica Lust Films. She has directed 4 award-winning erotic feature films, as well as the groundbreaking XConfessions short films.

Pornographic movies are traditionally very (white, cis-, hetero-)…

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We Should All Be Feminists & Dear Ijeawele by Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie

Fay Van Kerckvoorde

Why should we be feminists? Why not egalitarians?

“Because that would be dishonest. Feminism is, of course, part of human rights in general- but to choose to use the vague expression human rights (or egalitarians) is to deny the specific and particular problem of gender.

It would be a way of pretending that it was not women who have, for centuries, been excluded. It would be a way of denying that the problem of gender targets women. That the problem was not about being human, but specifically about being a female human.

For centuries, the world divided human beings into two groups and then proceeded to exclude and oppress one group. It is only fair that the solution acknowledge that.”

Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie (°1977 in Nigeria) is the bestselling author of novels Purple Hibiscus, Half of a Yellow Sun,The Thing Around Your Neck (short story collection) and Americanah.

She also…

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Why I’m No Longer Talking To White People About Race by Reni Eddo-Lodge

Fay Van Kerckvoorde

“Colour-blindness is a childish, stunted analysis of racism. (…) Not seeing race does little to deconstruct racist structures or materially improve the conditions which people of colour are subject to daily. In order to dismantle unjust, racist structures, we must see race.”

Reni Eddo-Lodge is a London-based, award-winning journalist. In 2014, she wrote the explosive blog post Why I’m No Longer Talking To White People About Race and expanded it into a book in 2017.

Passionately, Eddo-Lodge tackles the Britain society that is structurally racist. She talks about the history of race and race discrimination and shows how unconscious biases seeps into all aspects of our life – education, work, health, housing, safety and justice. Even if you are free of racist prejudices as an individual, you can’t ignore how powerful structural racist discrimination is and (unconsciously) influences people’s behavior and thoughts.

“White privilege is an absence of the negative…

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Kia Mataara : Resources from Kia Mōhio Kia Mārama Trust

Leonie Pihama

Tēnā koutou katoa,

This blog is to share the Kia Mataara series of resources on the history of Aotearoa and a range of political issues up to the end of the 1990’s. The Kia Mataara series was created by Kia Mōhio Kia Mārama Trust.

Last year I was given permission to digitally reproduce this series so that it could be made more widely available. This is the first public sharing of the resources in digital form with the agreement of those that produced the publications. Finding a full set of the publications took some time and it was Bronwyn Yates and Barbara Menzies that provided the set that is held by Literacy Aotearoa to enable the digitising of the series. The series was produced through the efforts of Kia Mōhio Kia Mārama Trust and the graphics for the series were created by Moana Maniapoto. What is clear is that this…

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How to expand subjective time during the lockdown.

Conscious Cookies

A three-step technique for creating space, slowing down and enhancing creativity.

“When one has much to put in them, a day has a thousand pockets.”

– Nieztsche

One of the challenges of living, working and socializing all from home during this Pandemic-induced lockdown is that the spatial structure of our days has been largely dissolved: where before we’d have a repertoire of different spaces for different activities, now everything’s happening at home.

If you think about a typical pre-COVID day for someone who works in an office for example, events are naturally distinguished by where they take place.

In my case, I’d get up, exercise in the park, cycle to the office, work and have discussions in different meeting rooms, go out for lunch, return to the office, go for a walking meeting, perhaps zip across town for a meeting in a café; and then after work, I’d often meet…

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