I haven’t done much writing in this space for the last 2 months. It’s definitely put down to my avoidance of screen time outside of work given I’ve been working a lot lately, so reading and writing for pleasure has been on the back burner somewhat.

I currently have 38 drafts sitting in my folder on different topics -_- which to be honest, I should probably just publish in rough form and edit as time and wisdom (hopefully) allows. Work requires a quick turnaround but I’m not generally that way minded in my personal life, though I probably need to be now days given time feels like its on speed now that I’ve reached my 30s.

Reviewing my calendar for the next 6 months of trials, personal goals and social events, I don’t know if there will be much balance across the entire year if I’m honest. But it’s what I’ve signed up to in this role so far, so I’m definitely not complaining. Partially out of fear of persecution from my fellow learned friends, but more so because I haven’t really done my time as yet (I’m only 5 years properly out of university in a full time job, but only over 3 years PQE).

I listen to the Female Career podcast from time to time when I’m making trips to different country Courts or to other cities and this weekend’s listen was on Mei Chen’s career path. I’ve heard stories of the high standards her firm demands of it’s juniors and associates and so expected this was the type of firm where you’re demanded to work long hours to give the client’s certainty when you tell them what they can and can’t do. This podcast confirmed that, however I also appreciated the other nugget of advice she gave, and that was to put a lot of energy into the early part of your career (which is what I’m doing now, exactly that) however don’t overwork yourself too much and spend time doing things that make you happy i.e. enjoy your weekends! Apparently she has only recently re-discovered what weekends are, and I get it. When you’re caught up in the race to become the best, it’s a tiresome job and you just get used to operating on exhaustion mode. But, I’m not sure my definition of success is the same as, I’m almost content to define my current achievements in life as the peak, knowing that I’m a child of a migrant family, practising in an area of law that allows me to constantly learn and challenge myself everyday, own a house and have meaningful relationships both professional and personal. I try to work hard as well as make sure I enjoy my time away from work, but know this is nowhere near the amount of work I was doing previously. The “balance” one can command in this role ebbs and flows. I’m not sure I will stay in this demanding job for a long time, in fact, I think I probably only have a few more years in me (2 – 4 maybe?) before I move sideways in the industry, which would allow me to have a bit more of a break to possibly have a family.

In an attempt to find a bit more balance and read for leisure or for things I’m interested in beyond law, I’ve stumbled across a book I hope to get through within the next few months by Monique Duson “Confronting injustice without compromising truth”. It’s not quite the analysis I’d wanted re the intersection with Christianity and the colonial mission regarding indigenous peoples, but it’s a start.

I’ve let me personal goals slip a little with the start of this year sweeping me by with lots of work hours, but I’m hoping an update in a months time, I would have dug into that book and other personal pursuits much more. It’s a personal and career goal to find a little more balance this year if I can.